I missed you

Posted by on Apr 9, 2013

I’ve had a bit of a whirlwind few months and even moreso a life changing few days. I’m battling some serious demons within me right now and, in the proper tone of springtime, trying to deal with the coming changes. I’ve been frustrated with the state of the music industry, and I can’t turn a blind eye since I truly live it every day. My last few shows in the fall ended in less than pleasant ways, leaving me fuming and thoroughly disenchanted with wanting to play live. I haven’t written a song in probably half a year and felt like music was slowly becoming something of my past. Enter Harrison Fine, playing on my innate need to help, he asked me to write a few songs together. It wasn’t completely an easy task, ripping apart someone’s deeply loved words, but we worked together and together we created something beautiful. I finally heard a recorded version of the final edit and I’m so proud of this song, and also proud of the others that follow, even though my involvement in them was much less prominent. I was there to watch him grow into an even better songwriter, and I’m in awe at what’s to come. I’m only part writer behind a song or three on this new project, so you won’t be seeing me in the spotlight, but I guarantee you will hear much more about it from me as soon as it’s more public.

Now here I stand, not really much further than I was six months ago, not entirely sure what my next “Ania” song will be, but knowing fully that I want to get back to it. I don’t know if a career in music if viable and I think maybe letting go of the need to make money from this will open new doors. Not every passion has to be a life long career. Music is in my blood, I got that from my granddad – though I wish I had inherited his talent to play any song by ear! Fittingly my next show is on April 17th at the Free Times Cafe – what would have been his birthday…and anniversary of his death (I know, freaky). I’m ready to try again, a little scared and still not sure if I’m truly cut out for this world of music…but I do know that I really missed it and missed you!

Credit: Photos By Shannon

One Comment

  1. Dave has struggled with the same thing and I keep just telling him to stop trying so hard to figure it out. Life will take it’s course, whatever that may be, and you will be happy with the outcome 🙂 hope that helps my love! xo